This poem, these words are so lovely and they resonate with me on many levels. As a young Christian, especially one who shares parts of my life on the internet, I sometimes feel like I’m expected to be “perfect.” But the reality is I’m not perfect, I’m human. The Bible tells us that we all sin and fall short of Gods standard (Romans 3:23,) however that doesn’t mean to settle in sin. Walking with Christ does not mean that I’m suddenly a saint but rather a person whose given grace to pursue a holy life, daily. I am so flawed. I get frustrated frequently and my temper is not cute, I often choose comfort over my calling, sometimes I go days without opening my bible and I’m literally the queen of isolating myself from others. Though this list could continue for days, what trumps this list is my love for Jesus. Or better yet His love for me.A love that convicts me to work on my flaws not only so so that my actions would match my words but so my actions would match God’s word. My intention is not perfection but to become a woman who authentically lives for Jesus while loving on others and attaining an inner light that shines outwardly to everyone I encounter.
Moral of the story: The Pursuit of Holiness>Perfection
With the recent events occurring in the world my heart has been so heavy. However, I’m reminded that all this is to be expected. The Lord has been preparing us for the end times through his word. A time in which “sin will be rampant everywhere, and the love of many will grow cold (i.e Matthew 24:12 NLT.)”
Recently in my time with God I’ve been receiving the same message; “Prepare” or “Get your house in order. Christ is coming soon.” God is giving us time to get it together so we can claim our space in heaven. Nothing this earth has to offer will mean anything when Christ decides to make his final appearance. I have a lot of work to do and maybe you do too but its okay because right now we have the opportunity to get our affairs in order.
It would be so disheartening to hear the words “I never knew you. Depart from me” (i.e Matthew 7:21-23 NKJV) on judgment day. With this being said, I encourage you to pursue a closer relationship with Christ and live life according to his word so that we can put this painful existence behind us and bask in the joys of heaven.
Why do we take comfort in sweeping our issues under the rug rather than sitting down, attacking them and successfully moving on? For me it’s the ease of not having to worry about issues because they’re out of sight; out of sight out of mind, right? Or better yet because sometimes I’m just lazy. Regardless of our reasoning, the act of intentionally striving to resolve inner issues is so important, because without change, they can often have negative effects on our lives.
Two weeks ago I posted that I would be leaving Instagram in order to focus on my newest educational endeavor. Instagram is by far my favorite social media outlet, however, I don’t always use it in the most beneficial way. Sometimes, I use it as a crutch to avoid difficult tasks and I often get caught up in the act of endlessly scrolling. After acknowledging this, I came to the conclusion that Instagram was the problem and by leaving Instagram I’d be better off. Simple, right?
Where I Stand Now
Tuesday morning was the first time I uploaded a blog-post since signing off of Instagram. Prior to uploading, I showed it to my mom to see if she liked it and she was particularly intrigued; not only was she the one who encouraged me to post the recipe but she also liked the layout of the post itself. Later that night when she asked me if anyone viewed or commented on the post I checked my stats and they were quite unusual, “9 hours, 0 views.” Yikes right! Although it was a different response than normal, I was actually at peace because I had already mentally prepared myself for all outcomes, and also, I’m pretty detached from “defining” numbers in my life. My mom, on the other hand, didn’t feel the same and wanted to know why there was such a sudden change in my blog stats. Naturally, I told her about my Instagram departure and the reasoning behind it. After listening to what I had to say, she immediately questioned my discipline. Her words exactly were, “Instagram is not your issue your lack of discipline is. Why don’t you use this as a task to strengthen your discipline rather than finding a way to ignore it?” I was so triggered because this was literally the truth. I decided to abandon my Instagram (a positive space that has allowed this introverted girl to make many positive and inspiring virtual connections) because I was afraid that when school started I would let it distract me from my studies, as I sometimes do. Writing this is so funny because it displays the fact that I felt controlled by a social app when in reality I’m in control of each and every decision I make(Sorry Instagram. It’s not you, it’s me.)
I was still a bit uneasy about using Instagram again, even after the conversation with my mom, but after giving it some thought I decided that it could be a good idea. This would be my challenge, and I love a challenge. The Bible constantly talks about the importance of self-control in our lives (e.g Titus 2:11- 12&Galatians 5:22-23) and that has been an area of my life which I’ve constantlyneglected. But it’s never too late to start, right?
As an aspiring woman of God, I can acknowledge that sweeping my issues and struggles under the rug will not help me bear the fruit I’d like to produce in my life, specifically self-control. And although Instagram may seem like such a “small issue,” if I can’t display self-control in the small areas of my life how will I ever be able to tackle the bigger areas?
“How you do one thing is how you do all things.”
Moving forward, I plan to identify other areas in my life that I’ve neglected to exhibit discipline in so that I can diligently work on changing them. Although that might take a while, I know it will be worth it and I hope that sharing this will encourage another person struggling with discipline to do the same. Thanks for stopping by!
Do you or have you struggled with discipline in your life? How do you deal with that?
Would you believe me if I told you that you can turn a can of chickpeas into tuna? Okay, not actual tuna of course but it tastes pretty close. Growing up, one of the easiest lunches I knew how to make was a simple tuna sandwich. Sadly, when I transitioned to a plant-based diet that was no longer an option. When the plant-based “experts” of the internet recommended using chickpeas as a replacer for tuna, I had to try it. Suffice it to say, my tuna-less “tuna” salad came out great! You can eat it on a bed of spinach, by itself, or on a slice of bread like I do; either way, it will taste yum lol. This is one of my go-to lunches, and because I make it allllll the time it was obvious that I had to share it with you. If you’re looking for a quick and easy sandwich filler for #meatlessmondays or just in general, you’ve come to the right place!
What You’ll Need!
1 can (15oz) Chickpeas (Rinse & Drain)
1 Carrot (Shredded)
1 Small Red Onion (Diced)
3 Stalks of Celery (Diced)
2 1/4 tbs of Veganaise
1 tsp Yellow mustard
1 tsp Ketchup
Old Bay Seasoning
Optional: Basil and Avocado
Let’s Make It!
Finely chop your celery and onion then set aside.
Add 3/4 of the can off chickpeas, veganaise, ketchup, and mustard into your blender, blitz until almost smooth.
In a bowl, mix contents of the blender with the remainder of uncrushed chickpeas, spices, cilantro, onions, shredded carrot, and celery.
Can I talk about my God really quickly? I generally cringe when people post photos from accidents so when my mom suggested I write about my feelings towards our recent car accident I immediately said NO. I have this thing where I only like to share certain parts of my life because I don’t want people to know my business, but sometimes that’s exactly what is necessary. Sometimes our “business” is just a testimony of how good our God is and it’s meant to be shared.
This weekend my family and I got into a pretty scary accident because someone wasn’t paying attention while driving (I make sure to add that because it’s so important to be 100% present on the road Y’all.) As I saw the accident about to happen and attempted to prevent it, my mind immediately shifted to the amount of pain “I knew” I would be in if the collision occurred. Although there wasn’t enough space or time to prevent the accident from happening, my family and I were all able to exit the car normally with just bumps, bruises, aches, and pains, praise God. Guys this was a head-on collision, my mom was in the back seat without a seatbelt on, the car swerved upon impact, the airbags popped out and with all of these things occurring we were still safe and sound. I don’t think words can express how grateful I am to God for his protection and covering.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings, you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. Psalms 91:4
In an effort to be open and honest with you all I’ll also let you in on the fact that I’ve been feeling depressed here and there ever since the accident. Although I know the accident was not my fault, the fact that I was the one driving the car has been stressing me for some reason. Also, seeing my mom in pain and thinking about the fact that the day wasn’t supposed to go how it did just irks my nerves. + I miss my baby already (my car 😭.)
Over the past two days, my mom has shown me so many news reports from the weekend of car accidents in which families have died, and the fact that God saw fit for us to see another day has literally brought up so many thoughts. I keep wondering “what if I did die?” Would my space in heaven have been secured? Would God be proud of me? Was I really doing all I could to pursue my purpose on earth? These questions have been so thought-provoking and while I write this today I am beyond moved to do better and be better, in all aspects of life. I am so thankful for God’s mercy and an opportunity to live the life he has called me to.
This experience has reminded me that tomorrow is never promised and we should be maximizing each day, living as if it were our last. I’ll end this post with a question for you.
If today was your last day on earth would you feel like you’ve fulfilled your God-given purpose?
If your answer to this question is no, then it’s time to join me in re-evaluating your life and aligning it with God’s will for you.
Have you ever experienced periods where you’ve felt like God was just so far away? There have been so many times in my life where I’ve felt like Jesus has abandoned me, especially when I was struggling the most. Now, as I take a moment to reassess, I know that it wasn’t God who drifted away; I did that all on my own. I would spend most of my time focusing on the problem rather than focusing on how God had plans to use me through the trial.
“Don’t focus on what you’re going through. Focus on what God is doing through you.”
In bible study, I came across Hebrews 13:8, which says, “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday today and forever.” Do you get what that means!? Jesus is incapable of change, meaning that he could not have, and will never desert us. If you need more proof of this, Moses reminds us in Deuteronomy 31:6 that God will never leave or forsake us, He is always ahead of us waiting to guide us through our trials, especially the ones that seem impossible.
The beauty of knowing that Christ never changes is in knowing that even when He feels far away he’s actually not. Christ loves us with an unchanging love and when we experience trials he is right beside us, waiting for us to run into his loving arms.
If you ever feel far away from God, I encourage you to reassess what you’re doing differently. Are you neglecting to spend time studying the word? Are you isolating yourself from your community in Christ, or even Christ himself? Are your prayers short and rushed? These are a few things I generally do that makes me feel like Christ has abandoned me when I’m in a trial. Can you see that I was the one who was drifting away from Christ all this time?
I pray that when we face trials God will reveal the ways in which we self-sabotage by distancing ourselves from Him. Jesus will never abandon us and he is always calling us to pursue a closer walk with Him, especially during the hard times. Instead of running away from Christ in the struggle lets aim to pursue him even harder than we did when everything was going great.
Meditate On Me: “Unchanging God” by Elevation Worship 💕