Has something ever felt so normal to you that if asked to explain you really have to sit and think, why? This happens to me all the time! This week I spent a lot of time thinking about the why behind my future home dream.
Two weeks ago, at 1 am I posted 3 photos (below) on Instagram with the caption, “Dreaming of a little cottage with a patio, a garden to grow my own food and a library filled with lights.” My sweet friend Jess commented and asked me what the why was behind the dream. After a few days thinking (and journaling) I can finally explain.
As cliché as it sounds, the why behind my dream is God (I know it sounds sooo corny but I’m so serious lol.) Since January, I’ve been praying that God would change my desires and help me focus more on him. I also asked that he would reveal my faults to me, and boy has this been a journey. Ya’ll! When you ask God for something don’t be surprised if it doesn’t look the way you expect it to.
For as long as I can remember when I pictured my future it looked LARGE. I saw a huge house in the suburbs, a BMW or some other fancy car, lots of money (to be rich even) and the ability to purchase anything I wanted at any given time (I was referring more to clothes and cars then.) This year God started making me question my motives. Why did I want these things and after I get them, what’s next? I had no real answer to that question. I just wanted to know that “I had it like that” and I saw no real purpose for my life, outside of a career and eventually a family. But what would happen in between career and family? What if a family of your own isn’t in your future? What next? These were some of the uncomfortable questions that God kept throwing my way.
As I write this now, I am amazed at how different my mindset is. Finding the answers to those questions helped prune me throughout this year and I want sooo much more for my life other than a career, money, and things alone. I want to live out my purpose (which I now know!) and pour the love of Christ into others. I want to slow down and enjoy life’s sweet moments with my friends and family. And most surprisingly, I want fewer things because I know material items are temporary. I know that my worth isn’t found in the clothes I wear, the number in my bank account, the house I live in or the car I drive. My Identity is found in Christ alone.
After that loonngg back story (sorry guys) I can explain the dream to you lol.
A Little House with A Patio
I really want to move out of the city (preferably in a country-ish area) and live a quiet life. When I picture my home, it is two words small and cozy. I want every room and every item in it to be meaningful to me. When I invite people over I don’t want it to feel like a museum (I have been to a few “museum” homes lol.) I want my home to be a place of comfort to all who step foot inside.
A patio with rocking chairs is definitely essential so that I can sit outside and watch the sun rise and fall. I know it’s corny but there’s something about watching the sun rise or fall that is so captivating to me.
A Garden to Grow My Own Food
In June, I decided to take my health into my own hands and started treating my body correctly. I began exercising and becoming more conscious of the things I eat. I also started reading food labels and researching “foreign” (chemistry looking) ingredients. I learned that many of the ingredients in our canned, processed and bagged foods have negative effects on our body. Can I just say that I’m pretty fed up with the food industry? I feel like gmo, “natural flavorings”, pesticides (on fruits and veggies) and unnecessary chemicals are in everything. Despite my best efforts, the only way I can control what is in my food is by growing it myself. Having a garden of my own is something that I’m really looking forward to.
A Library With Lights
Anyone that knows me knows that I lovee reading. A good book is generally what I ask for on my birthday or gift-giving holidays. I feel like books have the ability to transport you into a different world. You can also learn so much from intelligent people who you might never get the chance to meet in real life. A library to collect my favorite books sounds so comforting.
What are your home goals? Or if you’re already living in that season what does it look like?
“And make it your ambition to lead a quiet life:
You should mind your own business and work with your hands,
just as we told you”
1 Thessalonians 4:11