Can I talk about my God really quickly? I generally cringe when people post photos from accidents so when my mom suggested I write about my feelings towards our recent car accident I immediately said No. I have this thing where I only like to share certain parts of my life because I don’t want people to know my business, but sometimes that’s exactly what is necessary. Sometimes our “business” is just a testimony of how good our God is and it’s meant to be shared.
This weekend my family and I got into a pretty scary accident because someone wasn’t paying attention while driving (I make sure to add that because it’s so important to be 100% present on the road Y’all.) As I saw the accident about to happen and attempted to prevent it, my mind immediately shifted to the amount of pain “I knew” I would be in if the collision occurred. Although there wasn’t enough space or time to prevent the accident from happening, my family and I were all able to exit the car normally with just bumps, bruises, and aches, praise God. Guys this was a head-on collision, my mom was in the back seat without a seatbelt on, the car swerved upon impact, the airbags popped out and with all of these things occurring we were still safe and sound. I don’t think words can express how grateful I am to God for his protection and covering.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. Psalms 91:4
In an effort to be open and honest with you all I’ll also let you in on the fact that I’ve been feeling depressed here and there ever since the accident. Although I know the accident was not my fault, the fact that I was the one driving the car has been stressing me for some reason. Also, seeing my mom in pain and thinking about the fact that the day wasn’t supposed to go how it did just irks my nerves. + I miss my baby already (my car 😭.)
Over the past two days, my mom has shown me so many news reports from the weekend of car accidents in which families have died, and the fact that God saw fit for us to see another day has literally brought up so many thoughts. I keep wondering “what if I did die?” Would my space in heaven have been secured? Would God be proud of me? Was I really doing all I could to pursue my purpose on earth? These questions have been so thought-provoking and while I write this today I am beyond moved to do better and be better, in all aspects of life. I am so thankful for God’s mercy and an opportunity to live the life he has called me to.
This experience has reminded me that tomorrow is never promised and we should be maximizing each day, living as if it were our last. I’ll end this post with a question for you.
If today was your last day on earth would you feel like you’ve fulfilled your God-given purpose?
If your answer to this question is no, then it’s time to join me in re-evaluating your life and aligning it with God’s will for you.