Why do we take comfort in sweeping our issues under the rug rather than sitting down, attacking them and successfully moving on? For me it’s the ease of not having to worry about issues because they’re out of sight; out of sight out of mind, right? Or better yet because sometimes I’m just lazy. Regardless of our reasoning, the act of intentionally striving to resolve inner issues is so important, because without change, they can often have negative effects on our lives.
Two weeks ago I posted that I would be leaving Instagram in order to focus on my newest educational endeavor. Instagram is by far my favorite social media outlet, however, I don’t always use it in the most beneficial way. Sometimes, I use it as a crutch to avoid difficult tasks and I often get caught up in the act of endlessly scrolling. After acknowledging this, I came to the conclusion that Instagram was the problem and by leaving Instagram I’d be better off. Simple, right?
Where I Stand Now
Tuesday morning was the first time I uploaded a blog-post since signing off of Instagram. Prior to uploading, I showed it to my mom to see if she liked it and she was particularly intrigued; not only was she the one who encouraged me to post the recipe but she also liked the layout of the post itself. Later that night when she asked me if anyone viewed or commented on the post I checked my stats and they were quite unusual, “9 hours, 0 views.” Yikes right! Although it was a different response than normal, I was actually at peace because I had already mentally prepared myself for all outcomes, and also, I’m pretty detached from “defining” numbers in my life. My mom, on the other hand, didn’t feel the same and wanted to know why there was such a sudden change in my blog stats. Naturally, I told her about my Instagram departure and the reasoning behind it. After listening to what I had to say, she immediately questioned my discipline. Her words exactly were, “Instagram is not your issue your lack of discipline is. Why don’t you use this as a task to strengthen your discipline rather than finding a way to ignore it?” I was so triggered because this was literally the truth. I decided to abandon my Instagram (a positive space that has allowed this introverted girl to make many positive and inspiring virtual connections) because I was afraid that when school started I would let it distract me from my studies, as I sometimes do. Writing this is so funny because it displays the fact that I felt controlled by a social app when in reality I’m in control of each and every decision I make (Sorry Instagram. It’s not you, it’s me.)
I was still a bit uneasy about using Instagram again, even after the conversation with my mom, but after giving it some thought I decided that it could be a good idea. This would be my challenge, and I love a challenge. The Bible constantly talks about the importance of self-control in our lives (e.g Titus 2:11- 12 & Galatians 5:22-23) and that has been an area of my life which I’ve constantly neglected. But it’s never too late to start, right?
As an aspiring woman of God, I can acknowledge that sweeping my issues and struggles under the rug will not help me bear the fruit I’d like to produce in my life, specifically self-control. And although Instagram may seem like such a “small issue,” if I can’t display self-control in the small areas of my life how will I ever be able to tackle the bigger areas?
“How you do one thing is how you do all things.”
Do you or have you struggled with discipline in your life? How do you deal with that?